trying to move on

got a call from the workers' comp board this morning. have advised me i can still appeal the company doc's denial but i've tried to fight unscrupulous maine employers before and lost in the end, even after appeals. i'm going to cut my losses with these current crooks and go on from here. as always, the working class always gets the shaft from big business but i am thinking of my own desires and not theirs. they bully everyone and usually win but national healthcare is coming and it will be the end of them once and for all. **** now i have to find a part time job with healthcare benefits. a medical practice could get someone with lots of experience for not much money salary-wise if they so wish. my arm is slowly improving, though still painful and stiff and difficult to sleep for any length of time, but i am praying i'll get a complete recovery eventually; sooner would be better. i'm typing 2 hands now, so that is a plus. when i get back to sewing, i know i'll be completely better.

anthem crooks

how low down do you have to be to try and disable somebody before you fire them? ask tracey abbott, janice waterman, terry hopkins, dan corcoran, john brangi, ken goulet and angela braley and the rest of those crooks at anthem. i hated that job and i would have been more than happy to be fired a lot sooner, but they had to wait and make sure i couldn't get a job anywhere else. those lousy, vicious shitheads. i hate them all. somebody should shoot them all on sight. it won't be me, my weapon of choice has always been and will continue to be words. they are more damaging than any bullet.

can you believe?

for 20 years, some stupid idiot has been trying to disable me, keep me from having a career, at least that is how it seems. i was working at that lousy rehab hospital in braintree and my entire life went to hell. my house got stolen, i was rousted from a free rent house, i've had a bitch of a time trying to work, along the way various periods of unemployment, homelessness, debts piling up and even in maine it is more of the lousy same. since 2001 here i've never had a decent job, out of work nearly 2 years, then working for those corporate crooks who, it seems, are also trying to disable me. now, after 2 weeks of neck/back/shoulder/elbow pain and with no insurance, screwed by those bitches terry, tracey and janice, all seems quite bleak. i hope i never find the rotten idiots who have been in my way all these years. i hate them as much as anyone can hate anybody. God has been merciful and kept me from knowing who the stupid morons are, for there would be no mercy for them at all. After a miserable marriage, then 10 long years of struggling far too much and now this, 20 years of more misery. i keep hoping it will end some time but it never does. no matter where i go, i can't stay. i can't live in massachusetts, i can't be a medical secretary, i can't have a circle of friends and i can't go to church where i want. what is the point of being an emancipated adult if you are still imprisoned by other people's agendas. i can't figure out why my whole frigging life has to be miserable. i really don't know. i hate nearly everyone at this point. i'm about to start shooting people on sight, i hate them that much. the best revenge is to outlive the rotten bastards; maybe then i can do what i want for a change. now if i could just find out what is wrong with my neck and shoulder, maybe i could think about something else for a change.

corporate crooks

the worst i've ever encountered is my former employer, anthem or wellpoint. not only do they give their providers and members the shaft bigtime, they screw their employees on a daily basis. after they deliberately caused injury to my arm, they fired me for "other" reasons that were justified, but have been overlooked before because I met the numbers for them. that is all they really care about, that and profits. the business is totally profit and production driven. how many claims you can "close" in a day is their primary goal. the customer service reps get all the crappy callers and they have the least amount of knowledge, at the mercy of the hundreds of other employees who actually make adjustments or changes to claims. the people who key claims from paper submissions make hundreds of mistakes because they are going for numbers and not accuracy. they also bombard their employees daily about healthy living, mostly to avoid illness that necessitates claims. Once someone gets hurt or sick, they are on anthem's shit list. you'd think they would be more careful not to deliberately inflict injury on their employees, but they don't. they also tell you how to influence your elected officials on policies that might benefit anthem, i.e. healthcare reform. that is so wrong on so many levels. so here i am 2 weeks later still with arm pain, thanks to tracey abbott, the ergo queen, and my caring (not) manager, janice waterman. of course the company doc declared me totally fit for work, which is a complete joke. i have nearly constant arm/shoulder/back pain. these people should all be shot, the building blown up and the industry decimated. i'm voting for national healthcare hoping this puts them out of business once and for all. they lie, cheat, steal and connive while skating on thin legal ice. it's time for healthcare to be determined by medical practitioners, not bean counters. what goes around, comes around, and they are way overdue.

maine life sucks

everyone says maine is so beautiful, yada, yada, yada, and it's true, there are many pretty locales here. unfortunately, it's one of the worst places to live year round. it's provincial, backward, rural and definitely out of the loop of places where i want to live. i absolutely hate it here. i can't even get a newspaper delivered here, nor can i have a windowbox for herbs or anything. worst of all, it isn't home at all. i feel like i am in a foreign country. since 2001 i have never had a decent job here. i can't imagine who would ruin my life in massachusetts where i nearly always had a good job for this crappy place. i've been in pain for two weeks now, not constant but often and it's keeping me from sleeping at night, which makes me a truly miserable camper. i was happier living in a homeless shelter than i am here, at least i was never sick and i had a good job to boot. i miss my career, i miss my freedom, i miss being at home, i miss everything; conversely i hate nearly everything here. just ignore this post, i am furious as usual and mad at everyone and everything. i am hoping soon i will get out of here for good and back to my real life and away from this vacationland hell; i've gotten rid of the job from hell and now it's time for maine to go too.

a quiet sunday

not much doing at all except waiting for the arm thingie to get better. pretty annoying looking at all this fabric and these UFOs and not being able to sew one stitch. can now type with 2 hands but gingerly. i am hoping another week brings complete resolution. my first nonquilty task is to find part time work with health insurance as i currently have none and cobra is out of the question prohibitively expensive. i hardly get sick at all but do need that umbrella in case.

inch by inch

life's a cinch, or so they say. still working primarily one-handed, but have tapered off most of the pain/muscle spasm meds. they wreak absolute havoc with my digestive system, it's a toss up which is worse. best sleep in nearly 2 weeks last night. cannot yet sew or consider work, but that day should come eventually. heating pad is still my BFF, that and hot showers. reading all the quilty blogs drooling, wishing i could also sew. i did iron some strips today, right-handed, but rotary cutter and hand sewing out of the question for now. i also finally finished last sunday's paper just in time for another, but it made my arm ache holding up both sides of the newsprint. in spite of continued limitations, it is better than last week; will be overjoyed once pain free altogether.

progress

arm improves every day. anthem/wellpoint thinks they have disabled me for good but they are wrong, per usual for that pack of liars. they kick people when they are down, repeatedly, but i'm not finished yet by any means. just another maine boss that has screwed me. not sure why i am the proverbial outcast. i still miss my medical secretary job and haven't given up on it yet.

axed

finally been sprung from health insurance hell. wc denied which is no surprise, so working out future plans. shoulder/arm/wrist still painful so cannot work anywhere right now. such is life in maine, sucks bigtime. not sure when will be able to sew, tv is horrid in daytime. hoping god will get the revenge on these vile people. posted photos of fabric from lancaster, know it will keep until i am 2-handed again.

one handed

thanks to my employer, i'm out on wc for rep strain issues. tell me, what is not to understand about a chair with no arms? my mgr and the ergo queen didn't understand and so now i'm officially out of work and the rest of my vacation--most of it--ruined by these two idiots. so, short posts as i'm one handed