while in maine, all plans for sewing progress were abandoned but a bit of stitchery did get accomplished....
one of those projects that gets attention now and then....for a finish whenever. now that back home in MD, it'll get set aside again while adjusting to a new kind of life.
said goodbyes to my now smaller family with a lobster roll lunch, hugged and kissed with a new ferocity now that we start life without our touchstone and anchor and with fragility of life's reality. i have already signed up with bereavement support, hoping for guidance on how to live without my mom. would not wish her back, and having her for almost 75 years was a huge blessing never taken for granted. woke up in my own bed feeling isolated, alone, adrift, frozen, and still quite devastated at such a huge loss. unpacking and groceries need to be done, but i just want to curl up with quilts over me and pray for some magic wand to make it all go away....
I praise You, loving God, that no valley is deeper than Your love.
Oh Grace. Your feelings are so raw. I hope sharing them and getting love and support from our followers will help you through this difficult time. Know that you are loved and have friends out here in cyberspace.
ReplyDeletePut one foot in front of the other, even if it is slow moving. Take it moment by moment and cherish those great memories of her.
It is a huge loss. Massive. That space in your heart will never be filled by anyone else, as there could never be anyone quite like your mum. It does get easier though, I promise you, in time you will look back and this strange time will appear very brief compared to a lifetime of love and happy memories. (((Hugs)))
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