the sun is shining and the palms in my door quilt remind me of Jesus' journey toward a planned and seemingly final death. my daughter, conversely, is flying home from her london trip to loving arms and a joyful reunion despite its abrupt end and events of the past week. the picture is not lost to me, rather strikingly evident of Jesus' deliberate sacrifice for her life, and mine and yours too. it's been a harrowing couple of weeks with so many emotional upheavals--my own guilt and shame for hurtful words and lack of empathy plus anger i humbly admit, shocking revelations, sense of betrayal, apathy, some joy and happiness, some dread, sadness, kindness of strangers, pity, frustration. next week holds more of the same i fear. i am disappointed by my human-ness thinking i am really a nice person. nonstop prayers for my daughter's safe travel are now replaced by the hope for renewal, as spring renews the earth. far too often we fail to walk in others' shoes and bear their burdens...quiet daily struggles without end and that often escalate. of this i am guilty also. hindsight is 20/20 as my Christian divorce lawyer told me so long ago, and those words come back to me again and again. i've learned lessons from some of those mistakes and know i will learn from this one too. may the rebirth of spring and the reality of Easter be in all our hearts regardless of individual spiritual beliefs.
{{{{Grace}}}} that's your name for a reason! You are God's precious child, ever and always. With love.
ReplyDeleteI don't know how I could help but just know I'm thinking of you~
ReplyDeleteI have been an absent blogger too often lately. Sounds like things have been pretty hard lately, and I am sorry for whatever all this is that you have been faced with.
ReplyDeleteAs always, I keep you in my prayers, Grace, and hope you are feeling God's love and comfort.
Looking forward to the celebration of a glorious Easter, and hope your celebration will be lightening to the soul!
What Nann said above! Sending much love, you are not alone.
ReplyDeleteI am sending love and concern. I hope that writing your deep feelings is a way to help you get through.
ReplyDeleteHind sight is great........
ReplyDeleteWe are also our hardest critics.......