Friday, November 1, 2019

the big 2nd anniversary!

it's 2 years today since the big heart fix....and you might think i'm going overboard here, but if you have had this surgery you know otherwise.  it is brutal and monumentally life altering, complicating every single aspect of life, and quite likely without the surgery there would be no blog post at all....many tasks now are possible  but others still need improvement.  even tho my awful neighbors seem to be trying to kill me, it hasn't worked so far....i won't tell you it has been smooth sailing...far from it.  plenty of rogue waves engulfed me, riptides and many times blown off course.  it's a patch job that ushers in the start of a very high maintenance life, so difficult for me who has always been a get-up-and-go person.   i've cried an ocean of tears, been on top of the world, had many sleepless nights, plenty of inpatient visits, a gazillion lab tests, many repetitive cardiac tests, endless office visits, boring and tasteless salt-free meals and juggling dietary restrictions, more exercise in 2 years than the 68 before, a matterhorn-size stack of pills.  i've had to give away half my clothes and forego many fun events with great disappointment.  chicken is now on the endangered species list because i eat so much of it...LOL!  at my last doctor visit, i even told him i had changed my mind about having the bypass done because some days it is just that overwhelming....a very few...but of course so very thankful it was done.   i wish i could return to work part time but doesn't seem to be in the cards....snacking on potato chips, doritos, cheetos, pizza, french fries or movie popcorn has been a difficult habit to break...but do have a wee treat every so often without any issue.  i try to remember how far i've progressed, the days spent with family and friends, lots of quilting fun and just plain living.  i was never going to be a dancing diva, do cartwheels, change the world or run marathons...life is still very good!

4 comments:

  1. You are doing what you can to take care of yourself and you seem happy to have taken the leap of faith. Heart surgery is life altering--I have watched my brother go through a very invasive heart procedure and for a while afterward he thought he would die--and sometimes even wished for it. But he is healthier now and grateful for the chance at a longer life.
    I have been impressed with your dedication to improved health. You are a great example to me!

    ReplyDelete
  2. Congratulations on two years! You have done so much to change your ways and deserve a long and happy life. Be proud of yourself!!!

    ReplyDelete
  3. You are good-hearted, Grace, and getting better!

    ReplyDelete