waiting.....

the other night during a brief period of energy, paired up most of my christmas stash for trees...and they are still waiting....

every morning have to take the new meds that nearly totally flatten me.  often i must nap and then feel draggy the rest of the day.  not complaining, mind you, as they keep (almost) everything moving and help my heart/body to heal, but for a person who was used to jumping out of bed eager for the day, it can be discouraging.  yes, have had a few small pity parties, but mostly feel thankful i've done so well in just 6 short weeks after such a grueling and brutal surgery.  whereas i often used to start  sewing right after breakfast, instead i take these meds (4) and then wait for the cannonball to hit.   i make a to-do list halfheartedly knowing it's a fool's errand.  any dedicated sewist would feel the same, i'm sure.  my previously go-to caffeine hit has been banished, so it's cold turkey with just juice and water....very poor substitutes!  plus it's another 3 meds in the evening, so it's often a double whammy.  many tell me one day i will feel absolutely terrific, much better than before the surgery, but it isn't today.  i know others might not be faring as well, for which i feel guilty and blessed...but betty is waiting and we need to play, not just to make trees but for my own mental comfort, way better than anything from a drugstore.....don't you agree?